Soulemetry: Fairy Tales Do Exist
“Soulemetry”, the very idea of it makes me shiver. To see my thoughts, feelings and hopes displayed in this way makes me feel like nothing is impossible. :) Kind've like when you're young and you still believed in Santa Clause, true love and fairy tales.
You know I've always been a believer in true love, love at first sight, soul mates, the whole shebang. I really have, all the things that are made out of fairy tales I believed. I feel like a shadow of myself now...back then everything was alive, the possibilities endless and love was just somewhere out there lurking...waiting to find me, to find us all when we least expect it.
Soulemetry is a term I heard in the movie "Elena Undone", a very mature look at the lesbian romance...no tragic endings...nothing that would makes us feel as though we don't have the right to love, the right to happiness and the right to happily ever after...such as it is in the real world. I watched this movie unfold and I felt like a child again, filled with expectation, with hope and with love. For the longest time now, I've not felt my heart beat in my chest the way it would if I were truly alive. If my world meant more than it did. A lot of us are simply going through the motions...and the sad part is, we don't even know it.
We fall into traps of our own making and we forget what it means to LIVE, to FEEL, to FALL. I want to feel everything so intensely it hurts, because to NOT feel anything is tantamount to death. LIFE is about finding balance between the things you can't control and the things you can. I have accepted the things I can't control because there is nothing to be done wasting time worrying over them. Instead, I focus on the things I can affect, like my attitude, my purpose, my happiness and my life.
I believe that one day, I will see someone and in that moment I will KNOW that she is the ONE. It will be EPIC and unfathomable but it will be OURS. I will be BLINDSIDED and I look forward to it. I think we should all be so lucky....Well what else can I say...My biggest fear is to have found her, lost her and not even know it.
Now that is terrifying....
...Reading these words made me shiver...made me cry...not with sadness but with emotion..with tears that don't lie...
ReplyDeletesomeone sneaked into my soul? into thoughts? into my heart..?! ...my feelings..my fears..my hopes are now in the open...!!
not through me ...ufff i'm safe.. but through your beautiful post!
..coincidence...destiny...soulemetry...?!? doesn't matter..
in the end..we're all the same ...the search for LOVE is our connection... our common denominator in the equation of life...
Elena Undone...a great story..indeed..
I hope you've had the pleasure of watching this movie. It inspired, no stirred long dormant feelings within me. I can only hope it will do the same and more for you. :). Thank you for reading and commenting.
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ReplyDeleteThis post sent me scurrying to find the movie. The post was so intense and gushing with emotions. Good Job Callicia. Unfortunately, I was a bit disappointed by the movie. It wasn't as intense as I thought it would be. I loved Peyton but I think Elena was a poor actor which probably turned me off a bit. Also, when I'm watching lez flicks like Elena Undone (where a lesbian falls in love with a straight person), it's the lead up to that first kiss, that first time making love that creates the intensity and chills up your spine. I just didn't get that from Elena Undone. Pictures like Loving Annabelle and When Night is Falling had that heart-throbbing, wet in the pants, intense effect.
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I couldn't agree with you more about the "downner" moment of their first kiss. I love the intensity of such scenes specifically designed for capturing the... well, INTENSITY. I love to edit and I dislike watching something feeling like I could have done that better (capturing the scenes not playing the roles). Either way, the wit was funny but not hilarious. The character selection was better than some of the other films I've watched. Finally, if you want to really get wet in your pants, try watching "A Perfect Ending" where Jessica Clark is a true lesbian and plays the scenes intensely without missing a beat. Warning though...there is an age gap between the two lovers but it might surprise you. I thought I'd be turned off from the film (not like I'm trying to be turned on but I like feeling that rush they're feeling in a non...ish-sexual way) but I just had to see where thismovie was taking me...I've watched it more than once and we'll leave it at that. Good luck and get wet!
DeleteWell Aasia, I totally understand what you mean about the film itself. However, my emotions sprang from the concept not necessarily the films main focus. I agree with you on the intensity but I think they were trying to reflect a slow descent into passion. And I absolutely adore Loving Annabelle and When Night is Falling. :) By the way, you're the second person to tell me they didn't think Elena was very moving.
ReplyDeleteDear Callica, I enjoyed your post and its inspiring aspect on the movie. Which is why I after watching it i came across soulemetry and found your post on it. I've tried looking for email address, to invite you to community blog ive been trying to develop. Maybe we can share the many aspects of it. I also added your blog on the post and as blog roll. If your interested please email me at poeticlatina@gmail.com. Would be wonderful to hear from you.
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I'm actually in the same position as Elena only my twin flame is 8 states away, he is full blood Italian and I'm full blood Haitian and I'm married with 2 boys and daughter of a pastor (My father). We met when I was in college in NYC. I was born in NYC, but raised in NJ. I was the defiant young adult who wanted to move away from my father and his church to another state, anywhere away from that. But he only allowed me to go to college within the tri-state area. So I moved to NYC and in my sophomore year of college I met him. There was something about him I was instantly attracted to, but it was beyond that. I was absolutely in love, head over heels for him. The problem was he was a druggy and alcoholic and lied about his age back then (me=19, him=16) and also cheated on me. Despite that, I couldn't let him go, I couldn't break the connection. Ultimately he broke up with me because he saw I was failing college to be with him and didn't want that for me. The pain of breaking up was nothing like I felt before, because I was breaking up with before in other relationships, but this was different. Eventually, I met someone else and got pregnant and my twin flame moved to FL. I stayed with the baby's father and we got married and recently had another child. Throughout our 15yrs relationship and 7yrs marriage, I've always had my twin flame in the back of my mind. We've even met up few times over the years just because and we were drawn to each other, missing that connection. He eventually told me was always in love with me and never stopped even after all these years. I felt the same, but didn't want to recognize it cause I'm married. Fast forward to the present, my marriage is no longer the same and I was began to fall out of love with my husband. Sometimes I think I loved him, but never really was in love. My mind you, I blocked my twin flame from every social media until one day I had a real bad panic attack and all I could think of was him and I immediately unblocked him and contracted him. It was like a breath of fresh air just speaking to him (previous before this contact, we hadn't talked for 7yrs). He calmed me down and made me laugh. It was then I knew I couldn't love without him. We met up for his birthday (made a special trip to NYC just to see me) and spend the whole day together holding hands, took the Staten island ferry holding me as we watched the water. Just the connection alone, it was like when we first met, like I belonged with him, everything else didn't matter. As we continued our day just holding each other, it became apparent we needed each other more and more. We rented a hotel for 2hrs and we made love like I was complete with him. It was like we solidified what we were feeling,our connection. Afterwards, he laid on my chest as I was holding him, I couldn't let go. I couldn't imagine my life without him. He couldn't do the same either, but we knew we had to go back to reality. Since that day, we have been inseparable over the phone. Everyday we least say good morning. He admitted to me he loves me so much and doesn't even know why, but that he needs me in his life and that's the only thing he'll ever need. I feel the same way. At this point my marriage is not looking good cause my husband has neglected himself to the point it's like I have 3 kids instead of 2 and sex life is non-existent. I haven't been in love with him for a long time and lost attraction to him as well. I don't know where I go from here, but all I know is I never been happier and more in love with my flame than with anyone else. Good luck to me, hehe.
Hi👋! I saw this movie for the first time a few days ago. And ive been wacthing it every night before sleep, hopping by dreaming to be close to my soul mate. I loved this movie and the way it unfolds til the end.
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I just watched the movie. Then went searching for the term Soulemetry. Ha ha. Interesting and divinely connected that I found this blog that has an article that is written inspired by the movie. ❤️
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